It's Good

It's only after the fact that I remember I shouldn't try new looks while getting ready for church. This morning I was trying out my new eyeshadow only to realize 'I have no idea what I'm doing'. But I went with it because I didn't have time to take it all off and start over. I guess it didn't turn out as bad as I thought because my mom didn't say anything. ;) 

You know, it's a wonderful feeling to be content. Going through high school, so many things are kind of out of your control and up in the air, and you just don't know what you want or where you're heading- and that's okay. That's how I felt. And really, I still don't know where I'm going. But I know I'm on the right track because I have total peace about what I'm doing. 

It's been a long time since I felt completely content with where I was at, and God has brought me back to that, and I feel so at peace and so thankful. It's hard to describe... I'm excited to be beginning college, excited to be involved in church and serving the Lord, 100% okay with being single, and so so eager to see what God has waiting for me. I just can't explain it. It's like the things that have weighed on me aren't anymore, and I'm learning to go with the flow, and I'm just so excited. Does that make any sense? God has given me a new love for Him, and I'm eager to learn and serve, and... It's just so good. God is so good. He is doing a mighty work, everyone, and you don't want to miss it!

I think I'm becoming that person that wants to tell EVERYONE how great God is, and talk about it all the time. So prepare yourselves :) I am on fire. 

And I really love my mom too. <3 

I guess that's all. Keep your chin up. 

Just Saying

Why is it that no matter how in-shape I get, Jillian Michaels always manages to turn me into a huffing-puffing-mess by the end of the stupid DVD? Also, I don't think I've mentioned it but for the last month and a half (ish), I have been alternating between yoga and running for my workouts. The last couple weeks have been too hot to run, so it's been mostly yoga and I hate to say this but.......I think I'm becoming bored with it. WHICH IS TERRIBLE. Because it's working and it's good, but I haven't been looking forward to it the last several days. So. That's happening. BUT!!! I have lost 8 pounds (at the moment I'm writing this) since I re-started (AGAIN, ugh) my weight/fitness/health goal stuff. I have 8 to go, but I'm feeling confident. On August 10 it will be eight weeks since I started so that's a great pace; hitting at least one pound a week. And we are considering doing a Daniel Fast with our church starting next Monday, so that could speed things along a bit.

So, today seems to be international "handsome boy with a scruffy half-beard walking around so beautifully...WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND day". Does anyone feel my pain? Like, I can enjoy looking at these people but only for a few seconds because I don't want to be killed by the equally beautiful girl right next to him. #thestruggle It's all good- they're probably too old for me anyway right?

Can anyone tell me about Yonanas Machines? I saw them at Sam's today, and heard about them just a couple weeks ago, and I'm fascinated. Is it worth buying? Like, would I use it every day? Let me know if you know, because I'm super curious.

Maybe I'll want to workout if I eat something so I don't feel weak and hungry...What a concept.

I'm re-reading The Fault In Our Stars. Don't question it.

And I don't really know what else to talk about, so I'll leave you all with this: "Humility is not thinking less of yourself, it's thinking of yourself less." ~C.S. Lewis

xoxoxo,

Katie

Mental Rambling

To be totally honest, I feel like my life is super boring. I feel like I should have all these thing to write about... If you have any topics or ideas let me know!!

But anyway, I'm totally ready for fall. If it wasn't official before, it is now. Why is that? Well I just drank two cups of tea in a row even though its a thousand degrees outside. And I'm burning my fall candle. And I just really want to wear my warm jammies and snuggles up with blankets, and... yes. My Pinterest is transforming to FALL EVERYTHING before my very eyes. If you want you can follow me ;) @godgirl1  is my screen name, and because this is the Internet and I hope to someday have more than 12 people reading my posts, I'm not going to put my last name up for everyone to see and for bad guys to stalk me. Not that they would because I'm super boring. But I'm nice right? That counts for something.

I donated blood today, so that's cool. Got a free t-shirt and a couple baseball tickets. Oh, and I ran on the treadmill this morning. That went well... I've been alternating between yoga (I do the Jillian Michaels Yoga Meltdown)and running, and as long as I'm eating healthy foods, and working out most days, it has worked at slimming and toning my little self. Which is fabulous because that is the goal.  Think it's easy enough to stick with, so hopefully I... will stick with it. Obviously.

My candle is working guys. My room smells fabulous.
I've been wearing sunscreen more often recently, because it's good to do. Even when I don't put it on my body I try and put it on my hands, because -I have a confession- I am paranoid about getting premature spotty, wrinkly old-hands. I have a feeling I am the only one, too. So, I may ask for more for Christmas. I have a weird love for sunscreen, even though up until now I almost never wore it.

Oh!! And you know how people who smoke get prominent wrinkles around their mouth from sucking death into their lungs through their cigarettes? Is it crazy weird that I'm kind of afraid that will happen from drinking my Camelbak ALL THE TIME? I mean, it's the same concept and like facial motions, but... I don't know. This is a legitimate concern...but I love my Camelbak more than many things so it won't stop me...unless I'm right. Maybe.
And in case you didn't know, I'm addicted to chocolate and need to ban it from my life completely because I have no self-control when it comes to chocolate and it is going to make me obese.

So, if you read up to this point, thank you, because these are the things that go through my mind but that I don't think most people care to know. Congrats.

xoxoxo,
Katie

Already Loving You

There is a guy out in the world that has my whole heart.
I have loved him since I was a little girl, before I fully understood what real love is.
I've envisioned our life together. He is a part of all my dreams and plans.
He is my best friend, my safe place, my encourager. He is my favorite comedian, partner in crime, and my other half.
And I am so excited for what our future holds.

But, as I'm writing this, there is a chance I've still not met him.
That's right- this guy is most likely a total stranger. Or I might know him well. But that doesn't change the way I've always felt about him in my heart.

Whoever you are, know I'm waiting for you, excitedly anticipating your arrival in my life.

I don't know what to write that may help you understand my heart...

God created the two of us and smiled because He knew- He knew the adventures we would have together. He's waiting to give me you until the perfect time.

I really want to let you know one thing:
I'm already loving you.
I know you're out there, and you're more than I've ever dreamed. And when the time comes, you will become an amazing husband and father.

Know that I've always loved you.
I believe God has put such a strong desire for love in my heart so that I'll know it's the real-deal when our stories finally combine.
God is saving us for each other. Don't be discouraged, and don't doubt His plan. I know it's frustrating to not understand what our futures hold. But I'm not going anywhere that will be too far for you to reach me.

Finding each other will not/has not been a fast or simple journey. But I know it will be worth it.

We may not know the significance of our meeting until long after the fact. And if I'm honest, I probably won't make it easy for you to capture my heart at first. I'll conceal the strength of my feelings until I'm sure God's giving me a thumbs-up. I'll probably make you work at it and prove yourself and wait for me before I'm sure you're a safe place. But I promise that once you're in, you're in for good. You'll be my one and only, and I will do my very best to make sure you never question that fact. I will never let go of you. I will be by your side through everything, because life is an adventure I want to explore with you. Together we will work to further God's kingdom, in better ways than we could've done on our own.

I promise to be your loudest cheerleader and biggest encourager.

I will sing you love-songs during car rides.
I will make you delicious sandwiches when you're hungry, and when you're not.
I will watch sports with you, as long as you're willing to explain them to me as we go.
I will watch superhero-fighting-action-guy movies with you.
I will let you win when we arm-wrestle. Lol, you'll always win, I know that right now.
I will make sure we have plenty of blankets when it's cold so that I won't accidentally steal yours.
I will do your laundry with lots of love thrown-in for extra softness.
I will support your dreams. And help you face your fears.
I will kiss your owies.
I will pester you and bug you until we catch the giggles and can't go to sleep because everything's hilarious.
I will pray for you.
I will keep your love safe.
I will love you forever.

I pray that God will be your strength when you're discouraged or confused. That you will look to Him for guidance and comfort. That He will #1 in your life, and that I will always be #2 even if for now I'm just in your heart. I pray that you will not forget you are a Child of God, and that you will always remember that you are His.

I can't wait to meet you, whoever you are. You may even get another blog post if I think of anything to add. ;)

xoxoxo,
Katie