I knew it was coming too- every year after school starts, I begin to feel a bit left-out when it comes to homecoming and couples and all that lovey-dovey stuff. Everyone is going out and looking cute and taking pictures. And then there's me standing...with myself. Alone. It helps a lot when I'm told that it doesn't make sense I'm single. And I'm like "that's what I'm saying". I start to get down on myself, questioning what is wrong with me, and after some deep looking-staring out my window-stuff, I am reminded of two things:1. I am not single because boys don't find me attractive. I think it's because they're scared of me. Just kidding (but seriously). No, I am single because because I have very high standards and expectations of guys and relationships, and I make those clear to everyone in the way I live and present myself. I expect to be respected and anyone who knows me understands this. And I know it can been seen as intimidating. If a guy isn't willing to step up to the plate, though, then what's the point anyway? I shouldn't have to make it easy. So I don't know why I let myself think that I'm the problem.
Because I know there really is no problem, which leads into my next point.
2. God is preparing me. He is preparing My Man. He's teaching us, readying us. I am single because He is not ready to share me yet. He's letting the details fall into place, and through my doubt, He is most definitely teaching me patience. I am obviously needing to learn how to wait. And it's not fair of me to expect any guy to be ready to handle my crazy self (yet).
