Not to Worry Darling

Okay, so. It starts again.
I knew it was coming too- every year after school starts, I begin to feel a bit left-out when it comes to homecoming and couples and all that lovey-dovey stuff. Everyone is going out and looking cute and taking pictures. And then there's me standing...with myself. Alone. It helps a lot when I'm told that it doesn't make sense I'm single. And I'm like "that's what I'm saying". I start to get down on myself, questioning what is wrong with me, and after some deep looking-staring out my window-stuff, I am reminded of two things:

1. I am not single because boys don't find me attractive. I think it's because they're scared of me. Just kidding (but seriously). No, I am single because because I have very high standards and expectations of guys and relationships, and I make those clear to everyone in the way I live and present myself. I expect to be respected and anyone who knows me understands this. And I know it can been seen as intimidating. If a guy isn't willing to step up to the plate, though, then what's the point anyway? I shouldn't have to make it easy. So I don't know why I let myself think that I'm the problem.



Because I know there really is no problem, which leads into my next point.

2. God is preparing me. He is preparing My Man. He's teaching us, readying us. I am single because He is not ready to share me yet. He's letting the details fall into place, and through my doubt, He is most definitely teaching me patience. I am obviously needing to learn how to wait. And it's not fair of me to expect any guy to be ready to handle my crazy self (yet).

Short and sweet, but my question is WHY CAN'T I JUST FIGURE THIS OUT AND REMEMBER IT? It's not that complicated. I know everything above^. I do. So the next time I start to have a little pity-party, feel free to tell me to take my own advice and read my blog.